sicky.

blah. It sucks being sick, in any way, shape or form. Last week was awful. the pains were horrific. tomrw I have an atrocious doctors appointment that has me mega scared. I checked online how the procedure works and it looks so painful. urgh. I want to get all of this over with and see if they finally find wats wrong with me. I can't afford to loose days of work..need that $$ for Paris trip in november..yay! so excited for that. I can't wait. The only thing that gets me a little worried is the whole flight over to France, wat with all these airplane problems lately..oh well...so yea..I'll update tomrw after my doc appt..and transformers tomrw night..yay! lol =p

Droopy Eyes

had not been on here for some time now. two months or so. ewk. oh well. alot to talk about, though i rather not get all depressing on you. so lets just talk about the happy stuff. i "plan" on going to paris this november. have been over excited ever since i decided to go. i managed to get 10 days off from work and already booked the hotel. been looking up airline tickets and have found good deals. so 'yay' for that. im planning on going with my mother, my little brother and my boyfriend...hopefully.

bad things always present themselves at moments when you think youre the happiest so regardless of how happy i am for my trip, i am very depressed for many reasons. things, day by day, get from bad to worse. at work today, i started crying and my supervisor had to give me time off the phones for me to cool down, which proved to be hard to do. *sigh* i wish i didnt have so mush debt, wish could get rid of my car, have no worries, be happy and be respected and loved by others. i want to be able to trust and not have to cry again.

sorry...i promised i wouldnt get all depressive on here. ewk.

so anyways, i'll try updating on here again. ive abandoned you and i apologize =D

shamwow.

urgh. stress.

so, williams graduation was great. FINALLY. lolz. the demo reel/portfolio review was fun actually, tiring but fun. he did great and i am so so proud of him. now to get him a j.o.b

school is uurrgghh. i need this semester to end. geez. two more weeks. im prolly failing like 2 classes, which sucks cotton balls! watever. i cant wait til fall semester, i can finally start focusing on my major (asian studies/chinese) so i can finally start taking my language classes. summer semester is gonna suck. all the classes that i need are only offered in the afternoon and i have a crap as job that makes me work from 3:00pm until 9:00pm so im royally screwed. had to take just one, online, class, which sucks even more because now i have to pay an ADDITIONAL $200 for the damn online class...i hate my job.

watever..if for fall semester i cant get my majors classes in the AM and i dont get a good work schedule, quitting, here i come.

so yea. im tired. hungry (though we ordered sooo much pizza last night) i wanna get out of here (i'm at work, speaking of the devil)

so pues si (like my baby says)

i'll try to update sooner than later.

^ ^ domi

*poke*poke*

nuffin new. well yea, kinda. william is gonna graduate!!! finally! that damn school of his was giving him the run-around but he managed. his demo reel was great and mhm..cool. he presents his demo at the broward convention center this thursday from 9am-12pm..(go see).. along with everyone else's portfolios. then at 5pm, that same day, is his graduation. so exciting. graduatin college, tre' cool. i am so so so so far from graduating. sucks actually. ive been doing so bad. been on probation for the past two semesters, and imma be failling like 2 more classes this semester, prolly gonna get kicked out..lol..so bad...iuno wat happened to me. i was so good, as is known, but two, almost three years of being away, no school, just work, really killed me. uurrgghh. so upsetting. cant wait til fall semester. gonna start taking chinese and focusing on my major and not all these crap classes. anyways. im so excited! i took off work today to make up a class that id be missing to be able to go to williams portfolio/graduation. (couldnt make up the class either way, so mad) we..i have an A in that class, shouldnt hurt 'that bad'..blah. so yea. dont know wat classes to get for summer A..prolly just one, maybe two classes, hopefully online..we'll see. anyways. i have several ideas of what to get william as a graduation gift. i already got him the street fighter 4 tournament edition sticks, that cost me a freaking leg on ebay, but i want to get him something else. he wants: the Neverender: Children of the Fence Edition Coheed and Cambria new album, he wants Resident Evil 5, a hand held vacuum cleaner (lol) among other trinkets. siigghh..i'll figure it out. i'll end up getting them all..lol.. love i tell ya.
mhm.. so..well.. i'll write back tomrw after i get out of his graduation. all should go if you're his friend. he'll love it. maybe dinner after? we'll see =p

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Domi

graduation.

so. had not updated my blog in a while (http://www.abysweets.blogspot.com/) been super busy with work, school and helping my boyfriend, william out. my baby finally graduates next thursday and im so excited for him. he's getting his B.A in Video Game Art/Design and i think thats pretty cool. he's been so busy finalizing his demo reel, its been crazy. but today is the day. the moment of truth. he turns in his final reel and all that comes along with. i know he'll do great yet im so anxious. im here, home, waiting for his text telling me how he did. everynight, for the past 2-3 weeks ive been helping him best i can. pobresito, last night he didnt sleep at all. kissed him good bye this morning and sent him off. awww im so excited. rofl...gets me sad too though, he's graduating...and i am SO far off of graduating. urgh. this is what happens when i let work get ahead of school..urgghh!! we..it'll be ok. so. yea. i'll update again soon. have to write what ive been working on as a side project. cute stuff i say =p

domi ^ ^

origami.

papercrafting. its my thing. my hobby. && i love it. cubeecraft is the best. when i get money back from my taxes, imma have a kinkos trip worth a couple dollars to print cubees. it will be a party, a cubee party..consisting mainly of myself and maybe william..perhaps wilson. anywho's. in december, 08, i bought me this calendar thingy for my job where every day its an origami fold, base and/or model. its the bestest. my desk at work is full of origamis everywhere. the best part is that every day/page is a different paper color, with pretty prints and all. i love it. i love paper hearts, tulips, penguin, panda, pig, seals, boxes, dogs, etc etc. im obssesed ;p
i was thinking i should start recordin tutorials on papercrafting/origami, instructional videos to post on youtube and here as well. shall be cool. for my own pleasure. keeps me busy when im sad, depressed, alone and/or bored. lolz. oh well.

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bleh.

i hate not knowing. not being able to find out. i absolutely detest being lied to. i wanna believe every word that is said to me, but urgh its so hard. somethings are simply too hard to believe. how are they possible. and its so careless the response i get back. like it matters not. i dont deserve that. fuck, i wanna believe, but past events have led me to make my heart a little tougher. i care too much. i love too much. ive been lied to too much. it will not happen again that i get taken for a fool. maybe im just paranoid, due to the fact that the past has made me this way. i might be mistaken, but sadly i have no way of knowing whether i am or not. one thing i do know, for a fact, if i ever find out, again, that ive been lied to, again, it will be the end of it. the end of this. and you will regret the day you decided to mess with my heart.